It cracked wide open today.
And I have to let it.
Let the light shine onto the dark parts.
The parts that feel tender and bruised.
The parts that want to pull the shades closed and disappear into the darkness.
It cracked wide open today
And it reminds me that this guard, this armor
has only been keeping me from me.
It cracked wide open today
And I feel it from my heart to my toes.
This uncomfortable openness.
This little whisper that says "Don't shut it down."
What if I let it all fall down?
What if it stays open?
Can I feel it all the way through?
Can I ride this wave of pain laced with just the tiniest amount of pleasure that says...
You're doing it.
This is right.
Feel it, babe, feel it all the way through.
It cracked wide open today.
And it's take everything in my power to not glue the pieces back together again.
But maybe I'll plant them instead.